Sunday, December 4, 2011

Shit I realised..

"People ask the question... what's a RocknRolla? And I tell 'em - it's not about drums, drugs, and hospital drips, oh no. There's more there than that, my friend. We all like a bit of the good life - some the money, some the drugs, others the sex game, the glamour, or the fame. But a RocknRolla, oh, he's different. Why? Because a real RocknRolla wants the whole fucking lot."

Well.. So who wants to be a Rocknrolla, I see hands rising but wait a second, turn to a mirror and bitch slap yourself. U'll get a feel of the bitter truth in front of your eyes.. So, its been 23 years in life
U've got no money, no drugs, forget the sex game..
Glamor's the least fond of you and no prospective fame..

Now.. I would worry a little..
I hear the world is now brimming with oafs who've achieved disgusting heights of greatness for no fault of theirs.. Picture this.. who in the world would've thought that a school going kid with feline characteristics would date a kid that my room mate lusts after, has earned millions which probably would nt equal even the cumulative wealth(Stashed under the ground and in banks) of my known pedigree. Worst of all, he has his songs blaring from the 1500 Watt speakers of college going adults and employed kids who go 'Baby Baby' at the slightest provocation.

And I am here wondering what have I done till date..

Even the once fragile, and now Gabru jawaan Harbhajan Singh constantly mocks humble souls like ours by claiming repeatedly "Its my life.. I have made it large.. Have you??" I cannot jump walls and neither can dance at uninvited parties.. probably that is why I have n't made it large..

On reminding myself of the feats that people have accomplished by the time time they were 23 makes me feel even more miserable. Nadia Comaneci won her Olympic gold when she was 14(Closest I've come is a 2nd place in frog jump). Mark Zuckerberg became a millionaire when he was 22(Although even I have earned Rs.1000 for a very noble cause that cant be discussed in public). Britney Spears got divorced twice before she was 23(and I have only managed to read the profiles of people who've done so..)
And most importantly, Rajnikanth never looks like he has aged beyond 23.. and he never will..

The worst part is I will be turning 30 shortly.. and so will you.. and then there might be the same story to tell.. No progress made in life.. The truth is.. it hurts when a kid calls you by name.. but it hurts even more when he calls you Uncle..more so when its a lacklustre life that you've led. If there's one thing that bothers me.. is when my ugly kids ask me "Dad Tell us something interesting that you've done in life.. and all that I will be able to think of is the episode when I got snubbed in the mall of chennai hoping to hit on random chicks with the self assumed super smart question of "Hey.. Do you know if Naomi Watts is a Black or White", hoping for her to confuse it with Naomi Campbell or not know it at all (What a silly Racist bastard I am..!). But Hell yeah.. It was challenging.. Bet you try something stupid and then laugh..

To sum it up.. its not about having earned loads of money or for living for the fame.. it is only about Experience.. Have you felt what it feels like to run when you should be walking, have you known how it feels to walk in the rain holding hands with the one you love.. have you felt the chill down your spine when you waited long for someone at shit she's right there and you cant speak.. Have you felt the pride in your parents eyes.. Have you felt the warm hug that every tiny force in its grip means it.. Have you felt the pain.. of loss.. of defeat.. Have you actually lived your life.. Have you.. Kudos if you have...!!