What would you rather be?

Break ups are hard. Especially when you are friend zoned. The whole time. Some people should probably limit their ambitions in check with reality. Oh wait. Reality is so much more skewed.

Anyway. I am a perpetual cribber. I want to look at life in a more positive way, when life gives you a whammy. Says rightly deserved. Life is all about contradictory lessons. Sometimes you are taught to persevere. Keep trying. Don’t give up. On the other hand you are told don’t be second rung. If you are not the first choice. Give up. Move on. Look at better and brighter options.

Life, you so damn confusing. Most of the confusion in life is primarily because of choices. If you are said from childhood, come what may, you have to do this, probably there will lesser discontent because you never knew what another option would feel like. You never invested hours contemplating the pros or cons and still not arriving at a conclusion. Its like this. Even when you make a choice, you have times when you think what if I had taken the other road. What if, that would ve worked better. True, may be. But I can speak only for myself. And I have a bad repertoire of being at the receiving end. I ve not really felt what it is like to be in the driving seat in a relationship. The ball has never been in my court.

And I think I have a reason for that as well. I try too hard. I try too hard to find something. And now I realise, the harder you try to find something, the lesser the chances of you finding it. And as I said, confusing teachings of life says persevere. But fuck, do not. I love the word serendipity. It is one of my favorite words. It has a magical description to it. You can imagine what serendipity would be like. Oh. The wonderful chance. People, things and relationships discovered this way would have such a lucky touch to it. But I have nt felt it. May be that’s the positive. I still like the word.

So coming back to the question. I remember reading an article that said about how it is important to choose a person who reciprocates your feelings . Persevere if it is a 'Fuck, Yes!' from her. And if not, whats the point in being compared your whole life and fail still. You might be ready to take on the world for her, but she is still cribbing, telling oh, the other one would vee done. Better.

So yes lady. I do not want to be that other soul. Thanks for helping me. And thanks for all. I wish many things, one of whom was you, but not really. So, thanks but no thanks. I ll cry a little, But I will move on. I will move on.!